I don't know who to turn to, there is no-one I can talk to about this. Please, someone, help me because I feel I am going mad. I am living with a man I adore, and we've been together for 3 years now. We are very happy together and we've been talking about getting married.
My boyfriend is an only son. His father passed away when he was nine, and his mother raised him alone. They have always been very close, and though she's not very warm towards me, I've always admired her.
Yesterday I became ill at work. I started throwing up and running a fever, and my boss sent me home after lunch. I went home and it was so quiet. The curtains were drawn, and I was feeling really sick so I went to the bathroom first and I then I went into the bedroom and it was all dark. And then I heard all these little sounds, these little intimate sounds and he was there. He was there on my bed with someone making those sounds and saying things very softly to a woman.
I am so sick, you see, so I think it was the fever because it looked like her. It looked as if it was her in the dark, and it sounded like her voice making those sounds. And I just ran away, I turned around and ran and they didn't see me.
I went to my sister's and she gave me tea, and I stayed until it was home time. I didn't say anything to her, just that I was sick and had forgotten my keys.
I went home, and he was there like he always is, and he hugged and kissed me like he always does. As if he loves me? And he said. "My mother came to visit and brought us dinner." And it was there, a pot on the stove with his favorite stew. I started shaking and I started throwing up again. I'm so sick.
I think I imagined it because I was so sick. I keep seeing those things and hearing those sounds and I think I was mad and sick with fever. I can't ask him, and I can't forget. I can't stop hearing and seeing it. Please help me. I don't know what to do.
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