For those who are afraid of their husband’s death

A year ago, I lost my husband. When he died, I deeply understood the mistake I made which could have saved him. I am sharing this letter with everyone who is afraid of death but who don't understand the most important thing.

Six months before his death, my husband felt sick. I said that he needed to go to the hospital. But I wasn't convincing enough. So he made it into a joke and didn't listen to me.

I wanted to avoid having any quarrels with him so I left it alone.

Five months before his death, he experienced a strange shortness of breath. Our son asked him to go to the hospital but my husband just said: "It's because of my excess weight right now. I will start to exercise and this will pass."

I said nothing again.

Three months before his death, he became very pale. He was stubbornly convinced that he had heart problems due to excess weight. So, he dropped off some excess fat.

This affected his condition and he finally agreed to go to the hospital.

But it was already too late.

Doctors said that it was probably due to stress at work. They had found a tumor in him. It turned out he would already start losing weight because of cancer.

If we had gone to the doctors just half a year earlier, we could have saved him.

He bickered and refused treatment, but I insisted.

We quarreled a lot. It was difficult. And in any case, it was already too late.

When he was already dying, my husband said to me:

"Honey, I know that you will blame yourself for my death. Know that I am guilty of everything, you had nothing to do with it. It's a pity that you didn't convince me to go to the hospital..."

His last few words created a lump in my throat. I still remember them and cry.

Let my story be a warning for all! Show it to those who have elderly relatives and friends. Look after them before it is too late.