I cheated on my husband and now I have an STD

Dear AmoMama,

I know I got myself into this mess, and I guess I won't get any sympathy from most of you, but what I need is some advice.

My husband is in the service, and he's been away for most of the year, and you know what they say about the mice playing when the cat is away?

Well, I played, and I thought what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him, you know? And I bet he's been having his fun out there too.

The problem is, that a couple of weeks ago I started noticing some unusual discharge, and itching and I thought it was an allergy to a new washing liquid I'd got. So I changed it, but I didn't get better - it just wouldn't go away.

So I finally went to the doc and he took a swab and had some tests done. Now he tells me I have gonorrhea. He says it's a resistant strain and I will have to take meds and abstain from sexual contact.

My husband is arriving in a few days, and I will have to find a way not to have sex with him. I asked my doc if he could give me some meds for him too, so I could sleep with him and not have to explain? But the man was very unpleasant and said it was dangerous and unethical.

I don't know what to do. Should I make up a story, say I got raped or something? Or just act normal and slip him my pills in his food? I mean, I can even act normal then in a few weeks tell him I got it from him?

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