Carrie Underwood Talks about Mourning Her Miscarried Babies
The Country Music superstar suffered three miscarriages in 2017 as she and her husband were trying to conceive their second child before son Isaiah finally arrived, and she still mourns her unborn babies.
36-year old singer and actress Carrie Underwood is a caring and busy mother of two sons she shares with 39-year-old husband former ice hockey star Mike Fisher, and she is a living example of successfully balancing motherhood and her career.
During the extended interview, Underwood addressed the issue of her multiple miscarriages, something about which she first opened up about in a September 2018 CBS News interview.
In her recent conversation with the English news outlet, Underwood shared her current feelings about her losses, which she still feels deeply in her heart, stating that she believes she will carry that pain with her for the rest of her life.
“I will always mourn those children, those lives that were a shooting star, a breath of smoke, but I have Jacob, and he is incredible, he is the sweetest little baby. At the time it was awful, and it still hurts, but it’s kind of like OK, I have this.”
“I think you feel silly being so attached to something that you knew about for this long,” the “American Idol” winner said.
But I still feel it, you know. I mean it took me a while to be able to sing certain songs and be able to get through them without really going there. It doesn’t go away. Ever,” she added.
SHARING HER EXPERIENCE HELPED
Underwood also said that being able to talk about her losses gave her the courage to stop avoiding the issue and slowly work on healing herself, something that she wishes all parents dealing with such situation could do as well.
“It’s something that people don’t really talk about. Even people who are my friends and I know well, after I talked about it were like, ‘My gosh, me too!’ And I feel like it’s something I should’ve known about them,” she revealed.
Some of her songs from the Cry Pretty album reflect the feelings she was facing during those sad times, and singing those songs nowadays is something Underwood finds at the same time “difficult” and “therapeutic.”
“I guess you wait for things to stop hurting at some point. But letting yourself go there... other people that are going through the same thing, it kind of connects you to them,” the artist said.
“I will always mourn those children, those lives that were a shooting star, a breath of smoke, but I have Jacob, and he is incredible, he is the sweetest little baby. At the time it was awful, and it still hurts, but it’s kind of like OK, I have this,” she assured.
Apart from speaking out and turning to music to overcome her suffering, Underwood also took to religion to help her make peace with the loss, and she was determined not to be ungrateful for all the blessings in her life.
“I’ve always wanted to be a good daughter to my parents but also to God and not complain, because we are beyond blessed,” she recently told People.
“I get to do what I love, I have an incredible family. I have Mike, I have Isaiah, I have great parents. I have all of these amazing people around me, and I don’t want to complain, ever,” she elaborated.
“But the miscarriages made me get real with God and say, ‘Okay, I’m kind of giving up a little bit. If this isn’t meant to happen, then I need to accept that and know that someday I’ll understand why,’” Underwood shared.
HELPING OTHERS ACHIEVE THEIR DREAMS
Underwood comes from humble origins, growing up I small-town Oklahoma, and her love and talent for music paved her way to success. She finally got an opportunity to go after her dream when she signed up for “American Idol” in 2005.
Always remembering that if it wasn’t for that exposition she might have never been where she is right now, Underwood wanted to do something to help another aspiring artist, so she came up with a beautiful idea.
To mark the release of her song “Champion” in 2018, Underwood held a contest that offered the winner the chance to join her onstage during one of her shows.
20-year-old Medford, Wisconsin, resident LeTeasha Brost was the lucky one, and she fulfilled her dream during Underwood’s recent show at the Verizon Center in Minneapolis, when Brost sang “Champion” alongside the country star.
Brost dedicated the song to her late father, the “champion” of her life, whom she lost to diabetes in April. She also thanked Underwood for giving the opportunity to grow in her pursuit of a music career.