Captain Lee Rosbach of 'Below Deck' Opens up about Son Josh's Death and Trying to Cope with His Loss

In a new interview, Captain Lee Rosbach opened up about the hurt that lingers from the death of his son, Josh, and that he's still learning how to cope.

It's been two months since Captain Lee Rosbach of "Below Deck" fame lost his son, Josh, to an accidental overdose. In a new interview with Page Six, he opened up about the hurt that lingers and how he's still trying to cope with it.

ROSBACH HATES GOING TO SLEEP

Rosbach told the news outlet,

"I hate going to sleep; I hate waking up. There's a hole that cannot be filled."

No parent is designed to bury a child

He added that the saying "Time heals all wounds," is fallacious, as it doesn't, because,

"The only thing that time does for you is allow you to learn the skills you need to cope with the situation you are dealing with."

The reality star is still coping, and he noted that for 20 years, he and his wife, Maryanne, thought they'll get a call informing them that Josh was going to jail, or he had overdosed.

ROSBACH FOUND JOSH'S BODY

Although the phone call never came, Rosbach, who said that no parent is designed to bury a child, recounted that he found the deceased 42-year-old body at his home.

The luxury yacht captain had gone to check in on his youngest child who lived with opioid addiction for most of his life; the TV star said,

"I walked in, and he was sitting on the sofa with his head in his hands."

Adding,

"I thought he had passed out, and I felt relieved. I thought he was fine. Then I went over to him to [hug him], and he was cold. He was gone."

Whether you live in 10 Sq. Ft. mansion or double inside trailer, the path of destruction, and the devastation it leaves remains the same

ADDICTION KNOWS NO SOCIAL STATUS OR GEOGRAPHICAL LOCATION

Josh passed away in July, and at the time of his death, Rosbach wrote a touching tribute to him on Instagram and lamented about the havoc wreaked by addiction. He wrote,

"… Addiction is an insidious disease that knows no geographical location. Whether you live in 10 Sq. Ft. mansion or double-inside trailer, the path of destruction, and the devastation it leaves remain the same."

The reality star added that Josh's death left a hole that remains unfilled. He continues to remember the deceased as someone loving and caring, and holds on to the good memories of his son.