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Harry Revealed Pregnant Meghan Wanted to End Her Life ⁠— She Lived So He Would Not Lose Another Loved One

Gaone Pule
Apr 19, 2022
06:30 A.M.
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In the docuseries "The Me You Can't See," Prince Harry recounted the pain he felt upon hearing about his mother's passing as a young boy. Princess Diana's death affected her son's mental health, and for little Harry, it was like an out-of-body experience. 


When the docuseries "The Me You Can't See" launched in May 2021, it showed the Duke of Sussex, Prince Harry getting vulnerable about a time he learned that his mother, Princess Diana, had died. 

The 37-year-old revealed the loss of his mom affected his mental well-being as a child and beyond. During the interview with Oprah Winfrey, with whom he executive-produced the documentary, he told the media mogul that he did not want to think about his late mother.  

"If I think about her, it will bring up the fact that I can't bring her back," Prince Harry explained. The royal started therapy years ago to heal himself from the past.  


Prince Harry was only 12 years old when his mother was killed in a car accident in August 1997 after being pursued by the paparazzi in Paris. He admitted he tried to shut the harrowing experience off for years: 

"For many, many years, I didn't even think about it." 

A side-by-side portrait of Diana Princess of Wales and Dodi Fayed dated June 1 2004. / Source: Getty Images


When it came to the funeral of the Princess of Wales, the Duke's memories are a little numb. He shared both he and his brother Prince William were in shock: 

"It was like I was outside my body, showing one-tenth of the emotion that everyone else was showing. I was so angry with what happened to her and the fact that there was no justice at all." 

Pained with grief over his mother's death, Prince Harry opted not to talk about the ordeal, just like everyone else around him at the time. 

Photos of Princess Diana and Dodi Fayed incorporated into the work exhibited at Harrods. / Source: Getty Images


In the first three episodes of the Apple TV docuseries, Prince Harry also addressed the moment he was famously photographed with his father, brother, uncle, and grandfather walking behind Princess Diana's coffin at her funeral: 

"For me, the thing I remember the most was the sound of the horses' hooves going along the Mall. It was like I was outside my body and just walking along doing what was expected of me." 

Despite a claim that then 15-year-old Prince William and his younger brother Prince Harry did not walk behind their mother's coffin, there is another untold story by Princess Anne, which the Duke of Cambridge later denied. 


Over the years, the royal siblings have opened up about the loss of their beloved mother, also deemed the People's Princess. In July 2017, the princes used the HBO documentary "Diana, Our Mother: Her Life and Legacy" as a platform to candidly talk about her passing while they were young. 

The duo's last interaction with Princess Diana came from a phone conversation, which became a nightly routine since their parents split. 


In the doccie, Prince Harry shared he could not recall what he said to his mom but regretted his whole life how short the phone call was. 

"I can't, necessarily, remember what I said. But all I do remember is probably, you know, regretting for the rest of my life how short the phone call was. And if I'd known that was the last time I would speak to my mother – the things I would have said to her," Prince Harry stated.


When the news of Princess Diana's death reached her family, her sons were devastated. Prince William said it took a while for the heart-wrenching information to sink in: 

"There's nothing like it in the world. There really isn't. It's like an earthquake has just run through the house and through your life and everything. Your mind is completely split. And it took me a while for it to actually sink in." 

A few days later, on that fateful year of September 6, an estimated 2.5 billion people worldwide watched Princess Diana's funeral as her children walked behind her cortege.  

Earl Spencer, Prince William, Prince Harry, Prince Charles and the Duke of Edinburgh follow the coffin to the funeral cortege of Diana, Princess of Wales at Westminster Abbey on September 6, 1997 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images


Prince William later shared in the 2017 BBC documentary "Diana, 7 Days" that it was a difficult decision to make, adding it was a collective family decision to walk behind her coffin.  

Meanwhile, his brother Prince Harry told Newsweek in 2017 that the gesture was brutal. The Duke added that he had just lost his mother but was expected to walk behind her surrounded by thousands of people watching on and millions on TV: 

"I don't think any child should be asked to do that under any circumstances. I don't think it would happen today." 



Prince Harry and his fiancée actress Meghan Markle posing for a photograph in the Sunken Garden at Kensington Palace in west London on November 27, 2017. / Source: Getty Images

Many years after his mother's passing, Prince Harry met actress Meghan Markle. The pair got set up on a date with speculations pointing to Ralph Lauren, a public relations director, Violet von Westenholz, and designer Misha Nonoo as individuals who might have played match-maker with them.  


Either way, the person knew the prince and the Hollywood star and believed they would suit each other. So, one night, the British royal and the American native went on a blind date said to be at the Dean Street Townhouse in London. 

Upon seeing Markle for the first time, Prince Harry was smitten: "I was beautifully surprised when I walked into that room and saw her. I was like, 'Okay, well, I'm going to have to up my game!'" 


As for his future wife, the "Suits" alum had only one primary concern. She texted her friend, asking if her date was a nice person. "If he wasn't kind, it didn't seem like it would make sense Markle later reflected

Things moved fast for the two as Prince Harry was so serious about his then-girlfriend that insiders suggested an imminent engagement was on the cards at the time.  

The couple had been dating for two months when the prince introduced Markle to his father, Prince Charles, in 2016. Markle was also serious about the relationship, a close pal told People at the time, adding that she and Prince Harry had a lot in common and would get along well.  


Meghan, Duchess of Sussex pictured conversing with Prince Charles at the Westminster Abbey Commonwealth day service on March 11, 2019 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images

Moreover, she had to learn how to curtsy in a last-minute practice before meeting Queen Elizabeth II for the first time. The meeting took place at the Royal Lodge, where Prince Andrew and Sarah Ferguson, the Duchess of York, are usually based.  


Markle and Prince Harry did a few run-throughs before the meeting right in front of the house. When she eventually met the Queen, the future Duchess did a deep curtsy. They sat down and conversed, and speaking of the experience, later on, Markle said it was lovely and easy. 

In December 2016, a Buckingham Palace insider revealed to Us Weekly that Her Majesty fully supported Prince Harry and Markle's relationship. "She's delighted to see Harry in a loving relationship," the source added

Queen Elizabeth II pictured sitting and laughing with Meghan, Duchess of Sussex during a ceremony to open the new Mersey Gateway Bridge on June 14, 2018 in Halton, Cheshire, England. / Source: Getty Images


Then, rumors started swirling that Prince William was unhappy with his brother's decision to go public with his relationship with Markle. However, it was reportedly far from the truth as Kensington Palace released a statement from the Duke of Cambridge, which revealed his request to dismiss the allegations.  

The statement read that Prince William understood the situation about privacy and supported the need for Prince Harry to support those closest to him. 


Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex pictured waving from the Ascot Landau Carriage during their carriage procession on Castle Hill outside Windsor Castle in Windsor, on May 19, 2018. / Source: Getty Images


Prince Harry spontaneously asked for Markle's hand in marriage in November 2017 when the couple was enjoying a quiet Sunday night at Nottingham Cottage, cooking a roasted chicken.  

His stunned lover described the moment as "very romantic." Much to everyone's dismay, the royal couple's engagement got officially revealed to the public a few weeks later.  

Clarence House took to Twitter to reveal the big news, stating the Royal Family was elated to announce Prince Harry and Markle's engagement.  


They also revealed the much-anticipated royal wedding date on the platform, May 2018, at St. George's Chapel at Windsor Castle. 

Archbishop of Canterbury, the Most Rev, and Rt Hon. Justin Welby married the couple. After exchanging their wedding vows, the newlyweds paraded through the streets of Windsor in a horse-drawn carriage.  

Markle and Prince Harry became first-time parents in May 2019 when they welcomed their first child Archie, now two years old. Markle, 40, and Prince Harry expanded their family when they had their second child, ten-month-old Lilibet, in June 2021. 

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle posing with their newborn son Archie Harrison Mountbatten-Windsor during a photocall in St George's Hall at Windsor Castle on May 8, 2019 in Windsor, England. / Source: Getty Images


In October 2021, a source told Daily Express that Archie was becoming his own person now that he goes to preschool. The insider added that he was developing an endearing and sweet nature that made his parents feel immensely blessed.  

The source revealed that the Duke and Duchess of Sussex have nannies to call when their schedules get hectic but are incredibly hands-on. It has been easier for them with Lilibet in many ways because they use what they learned with Archie to take care of her.  


Prince William, Duke of Cambridge and Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge, Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex during a service marking the centenary of WW1 armistice at Westminster Abbey on November 11, 2018 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images


While it all seemed like a fairy-tale from the beginning, everything came crumbling down when Prince Harry and Markle opened up about the Royal Family in a view the public was not privy to.  

In October 2019, the royal couple gave an unfiltered perspective on their heavily dissected lives in a documentary. The Duke revealed to ITV reporter Tom Bradby that the ongoing management took its toll on their lives.  


His wife echoed the same sentiments saying she "tried hard to adopt the British sensibility of a stiff upper lip," but ultimately, "what that does internally is probably damaging." 

In essence, the Duke and Duchess broke the unwritten rule of avoiding talking about the Royal Family as it undermines the constitution.  

The pair later announced their plans to meet with other Royal Family members and officials to discuss their plans to work towards becoming financially independent.


The Royal Family requested Prince Harry to put pen to paper but was reluctant, fearing it may be leaked. In January 2020, the Sussexes announced their decision to step down as senior royals while revealing their plans to split their time between the UK and North America. 

BBC reported that the Queen and Prince William were not consulted before the statement got released and that Buckingham Palace was utterly disappointed.  

The move reportedly hurt senior royals. BBC correspondent Johnny Dymond noted that the fact that the palace stated they were disappointed sent a strong message. The couple's actions caused a significant rift between them and the Royal Family.  


Prince William and Prince Harry during the commemorations for the 100th anniversary of the battle of Vimy Ridge on April 9, 2017 in Lille, France. / Source: Getty Images

The Duke and Duchess shared it took them months of reflection and internal discussions to make their final decision. Meanwhile, Buckingham Palace said the situation was complex following the couple's statement release. 


The palace noted their understanding of Markle and Prince Harry desiring to take a different approach but that the issues were complicated and would take time to materialize.  

After the news made international headlines, Prince Harry expressed great sadness in their decision to step away from royal duties in his first public statement of the debacle. While acknowledging that the UK would forever be his home, he said there was no other option.  



Since relocating to the US in March 2020, the royal couple has had their hands full dabbling in new financial ventures, while Markle has continued to advocate for charitable causes.  

Most recently, she has also attempted the political sphere. Together with her husband, Markle and Prince Harry have their hearts set on a non-profit empire as they have an organization called Archewell Foundation.  

The pair have also made their environmental commitments and announced that Archewell would reach net-zero carbon emissions by the end of the decade. 


The Sussexes also unveiled new Hollywood careers in September 2020 with a megawatt Netflix deal. Prince Harry took on the role of executive producer on "Heart of Invictus," while his wife worked on an animated series titled "Pearl." 

Apart from the busy schedule, when it comes to the couple's baby daughter, Lilibet is chilled, said her father. Her personality is in contrast to that of her brother Archie. Markle revealed their baby girl was teething during a surprise appearance on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

For her first Halloween, the little royal was a skunk-like Flower from Bambi, and her sibling was a dinosaur, but he could not wait to get out of the costume.  


In March 2021, Markle and Prince Harry made international headlines for their tell-all interview with Winfrey, where they accused the Royal Family of being racist.  

The revelations revealed during the broadcast interview received a lot of backlash from the public. Markle also hinted there may have been a rift between her and Kate Middleton at the Wimbledon tennis final. 

It was despite photos showing the duo smiling and laughing together. Markle told Winfrey that "My understanding and my experience for the past four years is that it's nothing like what it looks like." The sisters-in-law attended the final of the tennis championships in July 2019.  


Kate Middleton and and Meghan Markle seated in the Royal Box on Centre Court during the Wimbledon Lawn Tennis Championships at the All England Lawn Tennis and Croquet Club at Wimbledon on July 13, 2019 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images

During the televised interview, the mother of two also revealed that her mental health suffered while living in the UK. According to her, Buckingham Palace refused to offer her the help she needed when she felt suicidal but did not want her spouse to "lose another woman in his life." 


Prince Harry said: "The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mom and to now be in a position of losing another woman in my life, with a baby inside of her, our baby." 

Markle shared she felt suicidal before a show at the Royal Albert Hall. The royal forced herself to go to the event with her spouse because she thought she could not be left alone for fear of what she might do.  

Pictured: People wearing face masks while watching a televised interview between Prince Harry with his wife Meghan Markle and TV host Oprah Winfrey, in Arlington, Virginia March 7, 2021. / Source: Getty Images


Prince Harry asked for help from his family on his wife's behalf, but his request fell on deaf ears because they were silent and neglected him and his spouse.  

When asked about the high-profile interview in June 2021, Sophie, Countess of Wessex, replied: "What interview?" Meanwhile, her husband, Prince Edward, joked that he had never heard about it. 

Sophie, Countess of Wessex and her husband Prince Edward, Earl of Wessex visiting the Tomorrow's People Social Enterprises at St Anselm's Church, Kennington on the Countess's 50th birthday on January 20, 2015 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images


In the book "Brothers And Wives: Inside the Private Lives of William, Kate, Harry, and Meghan" author Christopher Andersen claimed Prince Charles questioned the skin color of Markle's then-unborn child, Archie.  

In a follow-up, Prince Charles rejected a claim that he might have been the individual who did make the racist remark. His spokesman told Reuters that the claim was pure fiction and not worth commenting on. 


Queen Elizabeth II, Meghan, Duchess of Sussex, Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex, Prince William Duke of Cambridge and Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge captured watching the RAF 100th anniversary flypast from the balcony of Buckingham Palace on July 10, 2018 in London, England. / Source: Getty Images


The allegations raised in the explosive interview saddened the Queen. Despite the aftermath, Markle and Prince Harry have nothing but respect for the monarch. They even honored her by naming their daughter - by her nickname.  

Royal author Omid Scobie told "Good Morning America" that the royal couple's relationship with the royal matriarch is strong as ever.  

When coming to Prince Charles, the future King of England has tried to keep in touch with his son and his family since they moved to California. He also extended an olive branch when he complimented Prince Harry's commendable work on climate change. 

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle at the newly unveiled UK war memorial and Pukeahu National War Memorial Park, on October 28, 2018, in Wellington, New Zealand. / Source: Getty Images


There is still some animosity concerning the prince's relationship with his older brother. Scobie revealed there was not much progress in the siblings sorting out their differences after Prince Harry said they were on different paths.  

In terms of Markle, she reportedly has no intention of returning to the UK anytime soon. A royal expert has claimed the Duchess of Sussex had no plans to go back to where she was not welcomed and could not care less about what the Britons thought about her.

After the enormous rift between the Royal Family, the Sussexes only have each other, said an expert. Royal correspondent Katie Nicholl noted that the couple's determination to go solo proves their love and solidarity as a unit.