Hoda Kotb Reveals a Conversation with God That Changed Her Outlook on Motherhood
In an interview, "Today" co-anchor Hoda Kotb opened up about her discussion with God that changed her point of view toward motherhood.
"I remember having a short conversation with God," Hoda explained. "And I remember saying, 'I would have begged you for this day.'"
"I try to check myself on those rough days. And say, 'Remember when you were on your knees asking and begging for this moment? Take it.'"
In the days before she turned into a mother by adopting Haley Joy in February 2017, Hoda said she contemplated how she would have wished for even the most challenging day with her very own little girl.
A month ago, the broadcast journalist and Joel adopted another baby girl named Hope Catherine.
"Like, this terrible day, I would have begged on my knees for. So I remember I just literally took one breath, put her in the playpen, cleaned up ... but I remembered, for a second, having that awareness," she said.
Although that awareness doesn't make each second with young children all roses, it has remained with her on the difficult days of new motherhood.
Hoda stated, "I try to check myself on those rough days. And say, 'Remember when you were on your knees asking and begging for this moment? Take it.'"
Hoda said that she will dependably remember the first time Haley Joy was placed in her arms.
"And I remember she fit," she said. "That's all I remember. I remember thinking, 'I can't believe this fits like this.' It's like a puzzle piece that snapped in and now I'm me."
Recently, while preparing to celebrate her first Mother's Day since she adopted Hope Catherine, Hoda shared about her children's close bond.
"They're in love," she said. "They're just hanging out. She wakes up in the morning and kisses Hope, and when she goes down at night, she wants to give her a good night kiss."
Hoda was diagnosed with breast cancer when she was 42 years of age. Sadly, she came out of treatment unable to conceive.
In a 2017 interview with PEOPLE, Hoda revealed that she thought she would never be a mother.