R. Kelly’s Daughter Buku Admits She Considered Taking Own Life Amid Arrest News

"People don't realize how bad that hurts," R. Kelly's eldest daughter painfully reveals in a recent episode of "Growing Up Hip Hop Atlanta" where she detailing the abuse she received online due to her father's alleged sins that prompted her to contemplate ending her life.

R. Kelly’s reputation took a turn for the worse this year after the release of the documentary “Surviving R. Kelly” which delved on the persistent issue of his alleged abuse of young women. And while the troubled star’s career suffered from the backlash of the Lifetime documentary, his daughter admits, the scandal took a toll on her too. In fact, it led her to contemplate ending it all.

THE PAINS OF BEING R. KELLY'S DAUGHTER

Kelly’s estranged daughter, Joann Lee Kelly, also known as Buku Abi, opened up about the struggle she went through in light of her father’s trials. She admits having a difficult time dealing with all the media hype surrounding Kelly’s alleged sins, as she coped with her own issues with him.

Buku condemned her father’s alleged behavior back in January revealing she was aware of the “monster” he was being pictured by the media to be. She also disclosed the torment the scandal brought her family and her, despite being estranged to him.

"I spend a lot of days, or nights, crying. But, like, damn. I’m sad, and I have the right to be sad.”

KELLY'S RECENT ARREST

On Thursday, Kelly was arrested in Chicago for charges of sex trafficking which includes producing and receiving child pornography, engaging in criminal sexual activity with minors and paying thousands of dollars to recover his incriminating videotapes with these girls. He is currently locked up in jail awaiting trial.

ON ATTEMPTING TO END IT ALL

Meanwhile, Buku who’s a singer like him and now appears on “Growing Up Hip Hop Atlanta” broke down in a recent episode of the program as she described her agony the past months from dealing with the effects of the scandal.

"I’ve already dealt with the negatives just for having a last name. I genuinely don’t think that anybody can say anything worse than what has already been said to me throughout my 21 years of life.”

Buku admitted it wasn’t easy with the media constantly harassing her about the painful reality of her father. She said she would often respond by telling them she didn’t care about the scandal. What she cared about more was how it affected her life.

“I have an issue with my father. I had to drop out of school. I’ve had parents not let their children hang out with me. I spend a lot of days, or nights, crying. But, like, damn. I’m sad, and I have the right to be sad,” she said.

"People don't realize how bad that hurts," Buku said of the abuse she received online. "Because it's like, I didn't do anything. I didn't ask to be here."

She revealed comments became so hurtful that they urged her to entertain the thought of ending her life.

“We’re still trying to heal from a lot to the point where I tried to take my life. That’s a lot. Like, that is heavy s***”,” she reflects.

“And then to turn around and be like, ‘Oh, you should not feel that way. You’re selfish for feeling that way,’ it’s just, like, y’all are really heartless. I’ve already dealt with the negatives just for having a last name. I genuinely don’t think that anybody can say anything worse than what has already been said to me throughout my 21 years of life.”

ESTRANGED FROM HIS FAMILY

Buku’s last name was partly the reason she decided to change her name. She and her siblings, Jay, who came out as a transgender, and Robert Jr. have been estranged from their father for years. They are under the care of their mother, Andrea Lee, who was married to Kelly from 1996 to 2009.

In March, Kelly was arrested for reneging on his child support payments to Lee after she exposed his abusive ways in the film, "Surviving R. Kelly." The singer eventually coughed up what she was due with the help of an anonymous donor in the hopes of clearing his name. He is expected to continued child support payments to the tune of $20,000 a month, an amount he's asking to lower due to his suffering career.