Jesy Nelson's Mum Discovered the Secret Weight-Loss Jabs the Young Singer Had Been Taking in Private

In the final, haunting days before she walked away from one of the world's biggest girl groups, the 34-year-old pop star was quietly spiraling.

Behind the glamour, fame, and fierce choreography of Little Mix, Jesy Nelson was secretly injecting herself with weight loss drugs — terrified of slipping into a bikini for what would become her last-ever music video with the group.

It was only when her heartbroken mother, Janice White, uncovered the hidden stash that the shocking extent of the singer's desperation truly came to light.

'What's the Fastest Way to Lose a Stone in Five Days?'

The COVID-19 lockdown had offered Nelson a brief taste of freedom — no cameras, no comments, no pressure. But all that changed with one phone call.

"I was dreading that phone call saying they wanted me to do a music video for 'Holiday' in beachwear," she confessed in her new Prime Video docuseries, "Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Mix". "I was thinking, '[Expletive] off, no'. This is my worst nightmare. I just stuffed my face in lockdown and now you want me to get into a bikini?"

Panicked and cornered, the singer turned to Google in a frenzy:

"What's the fastest way to lose a stone in five days?"

A Mother's Worst Fear Comes True

For her mother, White, the warning signs had been there all along.

"I always worried when music videos would come up because I know she'd go to extremes to lose weight," she said, her voice heavy with grief. "She'd always be starving herself."

But even White wasn't prepared for what she found one day. "Then one time I found some weight loss injections and getting really upset, asking her, 'Why would you do that?'" she recalled.

'The Fat One From Little Mix': Jesy's Private Hell

Nelson has never shied away from speaking the brutal truth about her years in the spotlight — and the relentless trolling that carved away at her confidence.

In an August 2021 interview with The Guardian, she reflected on the dreaded moment Little Mix returned to work for the "Sweet Melody" video, released one month before "Holiday."

"In lockdown I'd just become a little porky pig and eaten whatever I wanted, and then they'd sprung on us two weeks prior, 'Oh, you've got a music video.' I got in a panic because I'd put on weight," she shared.

As her bandmates prepared to flaunt their toned midriffs in bikinis, Nelson was spiraling. "I went back to work and was really down about myself," she said. She ultimately wore a corset to avoid showing her body — a stark contrast to the others.

'Oh, Someone Forgot to Tell Jesy About the White Memo'

The cruel comments didn't stop at weight. Fans even noticed how she was visually separated in music videos — her styling often at odds with the rest of the group.

"I never wanted to wear white because I thought white made me look fat," Nelson admitted. "So I'd wear black and there would be this constant joke online among fans: 'Oh, someone forgot to tell Jesy about the white memo.'"

The styling choices became a symbol of her inner turmoil — a desperate attempt to disappear in plain sight.

Starving for Validation: 'I Drank Diet Coke for a Week'

The deeper the singer spiraled, the harder she tried to meet impossible expectations — no matter the cost.

"I thought, what is the [expletive] point? I'm literally starving myself. I've drunk Diet Coke for a week and I'm still getting called fat," she told The Guardian. "I went into a really dark place and did what I did."

What she did was attempt to take her own life — an overdose that landed her in hospital and left her family shattered, and her mother devastated.

"I think she felt like a bad mum – that she didn't know how bad it was," Nelson said. She explained that White blamed herself deeply, and added that seeing her mother feel such heavy guilt broke her heart — especially because there was no way she could have realized just how serious things had become.

She added, "My mum, still to this day, would rather me go back to being a barmaid than doing this."

Panic Attacks, Pressure, and a Breaking Point

But it wasn't just about body image — the relentless pace of stardom was wreaking havoc on Nelson's mental health.

Just before a high-profile appearance on BBC Radio 1's "Live Lounge", Nelson suffered a panic attack so intense that bandmate Perrie Edwards had to step in and sing her part.

"I was having these panic attacks out of nowhere," she said. "It got to the point where I thought, this is too much — I need to come out of this now."

'Be Your Number One Fan': Jesy's Message to Survivors

In a since-deleted heartbreaking Instagram post from February 2021, Nelson shared a gym photo and the haunting memory it held.

"On the day this picture was taken, I remember going to the gym with my manager and I stood in the mirror and I said, 'God I'm so fat I just want my legs to be like this' and I pulled my skin around to try and create a thigh gap because I genuinely believed that being skinny would make me happier," she wrote.

Even after starving herself into the body she thought she wanted, the happiness never came. Eventually, she reached a point where she stopped chasing validation from anyone but herself.

"It's taken me ten years to realise that I'm the only person I need to please," she shared. "You are the one in control of your happiness and you are the only one of you in this world — and that's pretty [expletive] powerful!"

'Odd One Out': The Film That Broke the Silence

Nelson — now a doting mum of two to twins Story and Ocean — first revealed the full extent of her suffering in the BBC One documentary "Odd One Out" in 2019.

In the film, she described the vicious cyberbullying that nearly destroyed her: messages telling her to "kill [herself]", memes mocking her appearance, and years of feeling like she didn't belong.

The documentary sparked a wave of support from fans, celebrities, and politicians alike — and marked the beginning of her long road to healing.